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Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Children

That's right, now I have children, there are 2. And I am completely in love with them both :)  They are so fun!  I mean, don't get me wrong, I often feel completely overwhelmed and inadequate, and James is still on his paternity leave... Next week is going to be a long week for me I think.  I am truly blown away at all the emotions I can feel when looking at my little family. I love them so much.  It is an all consuming kind of amazing love that is completely indescribable. The three of them are my whole world, and I'd do anything for them.  And at the same time I look at Thomas and Lorelai and think "I can't do this, I can't be a mother of 2! They out number me!" and I worry that I will spend too much time with one of them, and the other will feel forgotten, or that I won't show them enough how much I love them.  I am scared that I won't be able to handle everyday life, and it's kind of overwhelming.  But this afternoon, we were hanging out in the living room and James was holding Lorelai, and Thomas came up and got in the chair with them, and they all just sat and watched the TV.  It warmed my heart, and made me think that just maybe I could handle being a mother of two...

Friday, May 11, 2012

Birth Story

Well, she made it :)  Little Miss Lorelai is here! She's perfect, and healthy, and adorable.  So since this is my journal I am going to write the story of how we got her here!

On Thursday May 3rd at my weekly Dr appt the Dr suggested I have an amniocentesis the following week to see if Lorelai's lungs were mature enough to be induced.  We agreed, since I was having so many issues.  My hips had become increasingly worse, they both were giving out under me, I had even fallen quite a few times and bruised my hip pretty good (pretty bad?).  So we were scheduled for Tuesday at 10:15 am.  On Monday morning I was feeling pretty bad, and depressed.  So James called in sick to help take care of Thomas and I, and just to kind of have some time together. It was a really nice day actually, we got some stuff done, and played with Thomas a lot.  So Tuesday came, Michelle and MarJean came to watch Thomas and James and I went to the hospital. The nurse came out and called for Michelle, I waited a second, and since I was the only one in the waiting room said "I'm Amanda MICHELLE" and she laughed and said, "Oh, yes! Sorry, I was reading the wrong part of the form!"  So we were rolled back (I was in a wheelchair) and they did a nice long ultrasound to check her out, and find a place for the needle. The dr came in and told us all of the risks, which included her being born (kinda the point of the test) and possibly nicking the umbilical cord, in which case I'd have an immediate emergency c-section. This was like a 1 in 1000 chance, but it sure sounded bad... We agreed, feeling that it was best to do the test. So they put the needle in the first time, and boy was Lorelai uncooperative! She kept moving in the way, and wouldn't stay still long enough to do the test. Well they put the needle in and Lorelai literally grabbed the umbilical cord and moved it toward the needle.  Well that was too close for the Dr, so she took it out (I was fine with it!  Babies safety is way more important than anything else!) unfortunately that meant that she had to put the needle in my stomach again... The second time hurt a lot more than the first.  But they were able to get the sample, and then we had a NST while we waited for the results. So about half an hour later we got the results, and obviously it was that her lungs were mature!  So the nurse tells us this, and speaks to my Dr on the phone, and the nurse tells us to go home, and they would call us to let us know when to get back. So long story short, we go home and wait, and wait and wait, finally about 5 hours later I called the Dr, only to find out she was trying to get a hold of me the whole time, the nurse was crazy. We were supposed to go straight from the test over to Labor and Delivery, WHAT? So we hurridly find a sitter, and get everything together, and head to the hospital.  Get all checked in and they start hooking me up and what not.  We got there about 5pm, they started the pitocin at around 6, and by 8 nothing was happening... We were just waiting. So I sent James to get some dinner, I knew we would be up all night and the hospital only serves food during the day. So he got some Carl's Jr and I just kind of chilled, and waited. Still nothing happened.  So around 10 the Dr came in to see me, and she suggested we break my water so we can jump start everything and start doing internal monitoring because the external one wasn't working very well.  So around 10:30-11 we broke my water and my contractions came in at full force.  Right on top of each other, like 1 min apart.  So I got the epidural, I figured there was no use in waiting, and boy was I right.  I got the epidural around 11:30, and the nurse came in to check a little later, maybe 20 min, and I was at 9 cm.  Before they broke my water I was 3cm. So between 11 and 11:30 I made it 6 cm, and then by midnight I was 10, and getting ready to push.  The Dr came in and started getting everything ready, and by 12:30 we started to push.  She was born 15 minutes later.  Perfect, and beautiful. She had a full head of dark hair, and I was so excited! They let us keep her for about an hour and she nursed and we smiled and laughed and hugged her. Then they took her to the nursery for a bath, and I made my way to our room.  I got all cleaned up, and James and Lorelai came back. We cuddled a while, and then I asked the nurse to take her to the nursery.  I wasn't sure if I would have woken up if she cried, and James was exhausted. So we sent her to be taken care of, and slept for a few hours.  Of course they kept bugging me and taking my BP and giving me shots, ect. Well the baby slept for 6 hours! I was so sad I didn't get to sleep that whole time too! The next day we had a lot of visitors, and Thomas LOVED the baby. He just wanted to hold her and kiss her, it was so adorable!  He had so much fun seeing her! We left on Thursday afternoon, because I wanted to get home for Thomas. I would have liked to stay and have the nurses a little longer, but I felt like Thomas needed to come home. Well, that's the story so far!  We are so excited to have her home, and we are very blessed to have such beautiful children!

Monday, May 7, 2012

Lacking

Sorry my blog posts haven't been coming as regular as I would like, but I feel like I complain so much in my posts that I almost feel bad writing them...  So here are some fun bullet points, so that I can complain a little, but still have moments of happiness :)

-Thomas says so much!  He repeats almost every new word he hears, including the other day when I said "Shoot!" it was really cute, but now I'm realizing how many words I say that I'm not sure I want him to say.  I call him freakin' adorable all the time... I'm not sure I want him to say that to someone.  James however is trying to teach him words and he refuses.  He really wants him to say "homie-g" Thomas just laughs at him, which makes me laugh, and thus reinforces Thomas's giggles, it's a vicious cycle, but a really cute one!
-James and I graduated! It was great!  Because I was so hugely pregnant my mom kept telling everyone that I needed this and that, so we walked in first, our names were read about 6th or 7th, and then we got to just go.  We didn't sit through the rest of the 1300 names or anything. Also there was a freakin' (see I used it again!) hilarious poem, I'll see if I can find it on YouTube to share, because words cannot describe...
-Thomas kind of gave up putting himself to bed about 2 weeks ago, he just decided he wouldn't do it. So of course once he started to get out of bed we would go get him, not realizing we were teaching him that meant he didn't have to go to bed. So after a few nights on 10pm bedtimes and a few mornings of really early rising, we decided to stick to our guns and let him cry a little.  He figured it out quickly.  He would come  to the door, and cry, and then after we didn't grab him he would crawl back in  bed, whimper a little and then go to sleep.  Sweet success!
-James' job is just so so.  It's a bill payer, however he doesn't enjoy it, at all.  And it's hard because he kind of feels slapped in the face because of how they restructured everything. They changed how it all went and he got moved, it was a totally lateral move, but he doesn't like what he does now.  He is still full time, so we have benefits and he still gets paid (read "HUGE BLESSING!") but I just wish he enjoyed work more.  Now it's more of a chore than ever, and I kind of hate it.
-This pregnancy is pretty much killing me.  My body is not reacting to it well, and it just keeps getting worse.  It started with a few issues here and there, and has grown into serious pain all the time, the inability to walk, inability to sleep, and relying on everyone around me to ensure my son is taken care of, my house is clean, and I'm existing safely.  It's been really really hard on me.  Every movement hurts, especially if I lift my legs. I know that sounds like something you could avoid, it's not. Think about it, walking, sitting, putting on  your clothes, rolling over in bed, going to the bathroom, all of these common activities require your legs being lifted, well I can't do that. So I hobble around, James helps dress me, and I sleep horribly.  But all things will end.  I am having an amniocentesis tomorrow (a needle in my belly to take out some amniotic fluid to ensure Lorelai is ready to be born) and as long as the test comes back good (since she is so far along the chances are really good that they will, obviously not 100%, which is why we are doing the test, but still good) then she'll be born this week!  If not then I'm going to have a complete mental breakdown and this will be my last blog post.  We'll see!
-I'm actually terrified on the Amnio... just the thought freaks me out.  Needles are a big issue for me, every blood draw, and shot, I just psych myself out.  So knowing what's happening tomorrow, freaks me out.  James is really good at distracting me, and I have figured out how to do a little mind over matter calm down, mostly it involves James talking to me, me texting, and trying to talk to him, and singing a song in my head. This way I can try to avert all my attention elsewhere.  I figure if my brain is too distracted thinking of other things, I won't think about the giant needle piercing my skin... I'll let you know how it goes :)

And for today, that is all.  I'm watching TV and enjoying what I hope is one of my last nights being pregnant, fingers crossed!

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Wonderful People

In my life I am surrounded by many wonderful people.  For example, while on bedrest I have had so much help from loving family members, it's just wonderful.  To start, I have my amazing husband, he has taken up every household chore, completed all of the grocery shopping, and tirelessly takes care of Thomas every second he's home.  He gets up early every morning so that he can take care of Thomas, get him juice, change his diaper, and get him ready for the day so I can sleep a little longer.  He comes home from work and cleans and makes dinner and still manages to deal with an insanely emotional crazy pregnant woman.
Then there is my family.  My mom has been here every other day for the past several months, and in the past week she has been here pretty much every day. Taking care of Thomas, cleaning my kitchen, chatting with me (Thomas isn't much for conversation, he's only good for a quick word here and there) and spending way too much of her free time with me, rather than at home with my dad (where I know she'd love to be)  Then there is my dad, he hasn't been able to come up as much as we would like, but Thomas just adores him. Whenever we see him Thomas yells "PA!" and runs to him, it's adorable.  And my younger sister.  She has her life (I mean she's a 19 year old college student, there's always something fun to be doing) and still she came today and spent the entire day cleaning and taking care of Thomas.  She got him up from his nap so I could sleep longer, and fed him and dealt with his fussiness (I think all of the stress and hoop-la-la going on is hard for him, he's been acting out a bit) and spent her whole day just chilling and changing dirty diapers.
Then today my dear mother in law came over and brought my sister in law and they swept through my whole house, cleaning and organizing and scrubbing for several hours.  Making me sit and watch them do all of the things I should be doing (and feel like a horrible housekeeper for not being able to do) and did it with big smiles on their faces. They also kept me company for a while, it was nice to have a little group of people to chat with, I feel like I don't get a ton of interaction with anyone but my 19 month old, so it's really nice when I have someone I can talk to.
Both my and James's families are wonderful.  They come at a moments notice to watch Thomas, or call to check in and see how we are doing, they never pause when offering assistance and love to us, and I am so truly grateful for them.  In my life I have so many wonderful people surrounding me, I am so truly blessed. And with baby girl coming pretty much any day now, I am so happy to have such a wonderful family for her to be born into!

"Now, where were we?" "I'm huge"

Gotta love Madagascar 2, I'm actually stoked for the 3rd one (odd I know)
I know every post has been about being pregnant, and this one won't stray from the norm, but I promise soon it won't be a pregnancy complaining outlet for me, soon it will be all about my two wonderful kids and how I get to stay home all day with them! But, in the mean time...
We ended up in the hospital again last night... Lots of strong contractions for several days, none super consistent, but they were VERY painful, so I called my dr and she was booked solid, so they sent us in for a check up, to see what was happening.  So we got there and the nurse started offering James snacks and all sorts of things, and I started thinking "Oh no, we don't want to stay, I just want to make sure the baby is okay, stop acting like we are staying!"  So they checked me, and not good news, I've already started to dilate, I'm at about a 1 1/2, and 60% effaced and at -2 station (if you don't know what that means, count yourself blissfully ignorant, it just means my body is prepping for labor way too soon!) So they made me stay for a few hours to be monitored and ensure the dilation wasn't happening quickly.  Well after a few hours my contractions slowed down, and I hadn't dilated anymore, so they sent me home.  Well, before the sent me home they gave me a shot of morphine and some anti-nauseau meds. So I was very relaxed when we got home :)  So I have an appt on Thursday, we'll see how it goes.  Who knows what will happen at this point.  I really want to walk at graduation on Friday, so hopefully nothing has changed by Thursday.  I'll let you know!

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Dropped

Baby girl has decided it's time to drop down even lower than she already was. She's basically getting locked and loaded and ready for her grand debut. She is a little bit early though, so I'm trying to convince her that while punctuality is good, there is a such thing as too early.  My doctor is rather pessimistic about making it until 37 weeks, which is not a great feeling. At my last appt she said "I don't think you'll make it to 37 weeks, but if you can make it through this weekend then you'll be 34 weeks and 34 weekers tend to do much better than 33 weekers, so hold out"  And my thought was "Well gee, you're really inspiring confidence in me about this situation"  So that's that I guess.  I'm just trying to keep contractions to a minimum, which means doing as little as possible, because doing anything makes them worse, it's a ton of fun.
We graduate next week!! YAY!  I'm pretty excited, hoping I can walk through the ceremony alright, thankfully James will be walking right beside me, so I think we'll make it!
Thomas is still the cutest kid ever.  He is learning so quickly it blows my mind.  If he sees us do something once, he has to do it too.  He now has to wash his hands everytime I go to the bathroom (so we wash our hands like 50 times a day)  he loves to help unload the dishwasher (for some reason he always goes for the knifes in the utensil tray (probably because they have colorful handles)) he loves helping James put the groceries in the fridge, he always wants to help me pick up his toys, and then of course get them back out.  His new favorite thing is to help me push the laundry basket around, half the time he pushes, half the time he wants to ride in it, but it's still really cute.  He is my perfect little helper :)  He also loves the nice weather we've been having. We have the perfect little yard for him to play in, and he loves it.   I am working really hard on getting him to tell me what he wants, he's got the whole point and grunt thing down, but I am trying to get him to say what he wants.  Mostly because it drives me nuts when I can't figure out what he's pointing at and I can tell it frustrates him, so we are working on using words.  He's really good at it, his new favorite word is M&M's :)  They are my go to treat for him if he's being good or if he ate his lunch well, mostly cause I can give him 2-3 and he thinks it's the greatest thing.  That way I control the amount, and he can feed himself with minimal mess, they are my favorite toddler candy.  He's getting really good with multiple syllables, pepperoni and pudding are what he says to his dad all the time (because those are James' favorite snacks, and so Thomas has to have what daddy is eating)  We got him some fish, and he has to show them to everyone who comes over, it's adorable.  He's got so much personality I almost can't handle him!  Today he brought me my hair brush and started to brush my hair, I guess I do that a lot too, cause he's really good at it :)  Apparently I'm more vain then I thought :)

Monday, April 9, 2012

"If you wonder what I'm doing, I'm being awesome"

That is what my niece said to me this last weekend while playing at my in-laws house :) They are such funny girls!  One is 10 and the other 8, and they provide me with so many laughs!  This weekend was pretty epic!  Friday started off great, James let me sleep in till 10! It was a huge party!  Then when we got up (mostly me) we cleaned up a little bit, and played around a lot.  We decided for James' birthday we'd get fish, that was super fun!  So we hung out all day, and it was glorious!  Then Saturday we got up a little early, and went shooting with James's family in Saratoga Springs. Brett and Becky surprised us and were there too! It was a great birthday surprise for James! Thomas and I mostly sat in the car making driving sounds and eating muffins and cinnamon rolls.  It was fun.  After about an hour of that we headed back up to South Jordan for some more fun. The Harris's threw me a baby shower, which was great fun! Lots of fun clothes for sweet Lorelai and some fun games and punch. While we baby shower'd all the boys went outside and had a Nerf war.  We had bought some Nerf guns at Christmas because they were mismarked and super cheap, then the Harris's bought a few more, so they guys when out and shot each other while we giggled about babies.  After that we had a classic Harris family bbq, with tons of yummy chicken, steak, burgers, potato salad, fruit, baked beans, and everything else good!  After that I took a nap (because my stomach is now larger than my 19 month old, and it's tiring carrying it around) And James and Thomas went to play tennis with everyone else.  I woke up and joined them all, and it was so fun watching James play! It's been a long winter it feels like (even though winter never actually happened) and I haven't watched him play tennis in a while, I love it!  Then we had an easter egg hunt!  It was great! Thomas loved walking around picking up the eggs, thankfully he didn't think to open then, and he had no idea they were full of candy.  I managed to empty them all before he connected it, phew!  Then we played a game of Bocce ball, James loves that!  After that we went and shot off model rockets.  Thomas was exhausted at this point, so he just sat on James lap (and refused to even talk to anyone else),  but it was fun for me to watch them cuddle, Thomas just adores James, and I love it so much. After that we went home, ate left overs, chatted, and put Thomas down. Boy was he mad at us, he wanted to keep playing! But he was so tired he couldn't walk straight, so I put my foot down.  And I thought, oh, maybe I can get to bed soonish too. Little did I know the Harris's weren't done partying yet (I'm not quite up to partying par when it comes to the Harris's and I'm 8 months pregnant, I just can't keep up!) We went to see Mirror Mirror. It was quite enjoyable!  A silly family movie, but they are my favorite kind.  It was a good movie. Quite the contrast to Hunger Games which we saw last week, both good though.  So then we finally went to bed, well everyone else did. I spent the whole night tossing and turnning, I ended up on the couch because we were in the same room as Thomas, and I keep waking him up... So I tried the couch, not much success. We went to bed at midnight and of course Thomas got up at 6, so neither James nor I got much sleep.  But we went to church still, it was fun. I had packed us all nice easter outfits (of course I forgot to take pictures, curses!) and Thomas slept through sacrament, I was a little envious. So when we got home, James and I napped, for 2 hours. Glorious! Then Brett and Becky headed back to Colorado and we had a delicious easter dinner of ham and potatoes, then we played games!  Charades first, which was great! Mary and I were on the same wave length, it was awesome!  After that we watched Emperor's New Groove, a gift I got James. I forgot to mention that he got a gift an hour all day Sunday (it was supposed to be Monday, but we had too much happening, so I did it Sunday when we'd be home most of the day!)  He got some fun stuff! I'll let him tell you about it :)  Then we actually went to be early, it was nice!  We got up Monday way too early (Thomas) and headed to Cabella's and the Dinosaur Museum. Thomas loved them!  I would have loved them more if I could have floated rather than walked.... Then we came home, and Thomas napped for almost 4 hours! I slept for 2!  And now we are playing at home while James takes a stupid test. Well that was our weekend in a quick nutshell, hope it wasn't too boring!!