Livin' the life

Lots of things happening! Well, they aren't exactly exciting (unless you're me, and everything my kids do I find exciting!)  Lets start with the not so exciting:
Thomas dropped Lorelai. I wasn't even sure I wanted to post about this, because I'm pretty sure it makes me the worst mother ever, but I figure I don't care if anyone judges me, and I feel like a horrible mom either way... I went to the bathroom, and they both started to cry, I figured Lorelai wanted to be held, and Thomas wanted something or other, he comes running in crying asking me to come with him and saying "baby, get!"  I told him one second (not knowing anything was wrong) and Lorelai had stopped crying, so I came out and Thomas ran in front of me, and I come into the living room and Lorelai's on the floor (not crying at this point) and I freaked out. I ran in, and grabbed her, scaring her and making her cry (much  to my relief!) I held Thomas and Lorelai and comforted them both, and cried. Called the Dr, the nurse was awesome, she told me it happens all the time, and to watch for a few things, and come back if she had certain symptoms. She was fine.
Thomas has figured out hide and seek.  Which is cute, and utterly terrifying at the same time. We like to leave the door open in the morning and later evening to help cool the house. So James and I were getting things from the back of the apartment, and I came back out (after literally 1 min) and said "Thomas!" and he wasn't there. So I went into the kitchen, not there, so I went into both bedrooms, the bathroom, the living room and kitchen again, by now screaming his name and becoming frantic. James joined me searching for him, we even checked outside just in case (horrible thought!) he has fallen off the porch. He was nowhere. I was freaking out, screaming his name and almost crying when James yells "THOMAS!" like he does if Thomas is in trouble or about to do something that might hurt him, and Thomas started to cry and came out from behind the desk in our living room. Worst 2 minutes of my life. I started to think horrible things about why I couldn't find my son, and I cried when we found him. Needless to say we both held the kids for the next few hours.
Thomas has smacked his head on the ground twice this week. And I'm sorry to say once was my fault.  We went to take family pictures, Thomas was playing with grandpa, tripped and hit his head on the asphalt. He's fine, I was terrified he'd really hurt himself and ran over to him, big lump, a bruise, and he was fine a minute later. Then today on our way out the door for church, I picked him up so we could get down the stairs faster, and fell down the stairs.  We were at the bottom, so he only fell about 1 foot, but he hit his head on the handrail, and I twisted my ankle. Again he was fine in a minute and I felt horrible for hours, probably days (I'll let you know)
Now for something happy, because I'm sitting here feeling like the worst mother ever and wanting to hide in a hole.
Thomas is using little sentences, and they are adorable! He'll say things like "Miss daddy" or "want plate" ect, and I love it! He's also started saying  "Want!" and shaking his head no if he doesn't want something.    He is learning the alphabet really well. He watches different shows, and loves "Super Why" on netflix. Whenever we are out he finds letters and points them out to me. He is also getting better with colors, calling certain things correct colors.   He loves to explore, and make messes, and he loves his little sister.  He wants to learn all the time, and loves to read. We are trying to get him to read to us, rather than just being read to. And he's started doing it. He has one books called Monster Halloween and we have read it hundreds of times (no joke) and he has it memorized. So he will sit down and "read" it. Each page says "Monster (word)" so he'll say Dress, or scare, or share, or shake, whatever each page says. But he only does that sometimes, he much prefers to be read to. So we do, all the time, every day :)
Lorelai is the cutest baby ever! She has fat rolls on her thighs and I love them!  Thomas was never fat, and so the fact that Lorelai pretends to be, makes me so happy! She also has super fat cheeks, the most adorable thing!  She is stingy with her smiles though. She loves to look at us (especially Thomas) and makes the cutest sounds! She is pretty much a 2 1/2 month old baby :) But the most perfect one ever!
James is officially in the police academy. Which is awesome! And horrible at the same time... He is going to go through this fall, and I am so stoked for him. He's also very excited!  It'll be really great, the downside is it's M-F 5-9:30 and Sat 8-5 from September to November and March to July. So he will work all day and go to school all night.  I'm going to be a single mom for all intents and purposes for a few months :( The worst part will be when Thomas wants to play with James and I have to tell him Daddy is at work... I'm glad he's still so young and so it won't be something he remembers, but I still hate it...
And now that I've written a novel I will leave to ponder my words, until I decide to post again :)